Say What?!

This weekend I got to see my awesome brother-in-law graduate from UVU with a BA in Graphic Design. Seriously, he and my sister are pretty legit. I mean, they have the cutest little girls ever and he got them to walk with him in their own little caps and gowns! (Props to the madre) I'm so proud of their little family. They are some of the best parents in the world, they work themselves to death and they're two of my best friends. Abby and Bella are two lucky girls! Mandy, like I've said in so many posts, is one of my greatest role models I've ever had. I hope to grow to have even a little bit of the courage, kindness, love, faith, and dedication that she possesses.

I guess the combination of the graduation, a wedding, and a farewell of some close friends got me thinking about my life. I've been pondering about my hopes and dreams. I know what I want out of life and I don't think I could have said that a few years ago. And guess what? I've finally figured out that what I want is actually exactly what Heavenly Father wants for me! How cool is that? With all of that mind, I've been getting excited for school to start  up again, excited to continue the path to one of my biggest dreams. I was looking at a syllabus for one of my new classes and I had a completely different thought pop into my head. Have you ever had that happen to you?  Do you stop and wonder if that thought was just a random happenstance or if it was something you were meant to hear? What if God wants me to do something I had given up on a long time ago, something that excites me and scares me more than anything I've ever known? What if God may want me to be doing something crazy for the next little while? What if that same thing mean I might miss out on something I've wanted for a LONG time? Well, I better go start praying!!
(Sorry for the vague post. I just had a lot of thoughts to get out and this is my form of a journal.)

Faith

"Feed your faith and your doubts will starve to death."

You might say I'm a little stubborn, alright I'm extremely stubborn. I like things done my way and in my time. I've had to work hard on giving my life over to the Lord so that he can show me what to do and when to do it. I tend to run away from any promptings I get that would bring any major changes into my life. But guess what I've realized? All those promptings that usually bring doubt and fear are the exact changes I need for me to be as happy as the Lord intends. So, after learning all of this I've finally decided to take a leap of faith. I'm going to take a risk. I can't wait for the blessings that await. There are some major changes about to happen in my life. This is vague enough right? I'll just end with a few great quotes.

"To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing." - Unknown

"And I said to the man who stood at the gate of the year: 'Give me a light, that I may tread safely into the unknown!' And he replied: 'Go out into the darkness and put your hand into the Hand of God. That shall be to you better than light and safer than a known way."
- Minnie Louise Haskins Oct. Conference 2005

My Head's in the Clouds and I Can't Come Back Down

Sometimes I just want to wish away time, don't get me wrong I love my life now but i fantasize about what my life will be like one day. Someday I'll earn my degree in the subject that I love and change the world by looking to the past, I'll teach children what happened at sites like this one and how it's important for our future...


Someday I'll meet a man that wil make me laugh when I want to cry and smile when I want to scream. He'll take me on little inexpensive dates where we ride bikes or go on a picnic...


Someday that boy and I will decide we love each other and we want to spend the rest of eternity together...


Someday my handsome husband and I will live in a cute little brightly colored house somewhere close to D.C. with a little front yard where our kids can play much like this one...


Someday I hope to be half as incredibly graceful and caring as the women I admire, like Ilene Olsen, Julie Byron, Mandy Ogaz, Bekah Byron, Anna Bowman, Hilary Norton and Audri Marler. Someday. But for now I'll just work toward all those beautiful dreams and be happy in the now.


There's so much to rejoice in.