Well folks, guess what? Sammi came home to visit for a week and decided by the end of the first night that she was going to stay for 3 weeks!! The past week has been so fun with her here. It's reminded me of all she is to me and this is why I dedicate this post to her.
Sammi has always been someone I can laugh with. I remember the 12 yr old girl that had imaginary friends, short little hair and was a little bit of a freak right along side me. We were great friends that could laugh and play together. Then high school hit. We still did things together but we were very distant. Senior year came with a lot of ups and downs. It started with us super close. We hung out every weekend and did pretty much the same things all the time but I loved it. Cafe rio runs and house hunting always served us well. Toward the last half of my senior year we started drifting for reasons I only blame myself for. The summer before my freshman year we hardly talked at all. However, during all of this I knew she really cared about me and knew I just needed to grow and learn alone for a while.
After a very long year that I had grown more than I ever thought possible we went on a drive over spring break. I asked Sammi how she lived the way she did. I'll never forget what she said. "I live this way because it makes me happy, not because I know it's what I'm supposed to do or because I want to impress the people around me, just because it makes me happy. That's enough for me and it pushes me to strive to be better everyday." I knew then that I needed to stop pushing against her and let her all the way back into my life because she had so much to teach me. That summer was filled with great memories- boyfriends, rodeos, and fabulous group dates.
All of these were nothing compared to the year that was to come. Up to now in our little timeline, Sammi was the friend I wouldn't ever let all the way in. She just seemed too perfect to let her see everything about myself. Like she wouldn't still love me if she knew.
My sophomore year of college was here! I was so excited about my living arrangement and the new friends I would make. I was a little apprehensive about Sammi being in Logan, only because I didn't want to hang out with her so much that I wouldn't make other friends. This was far from what actually happened.
This where the post is going to be directed toward Sammi-
Sammi I don't think you'll ever know what a great blessing it was to have you in Logan this past year. You were always available when I needed you. Even when I wanted to do the lamest things (Girls Just Wanna Have Fun). I opened myself to you completely and you were one of the people I knew would always keep my secrets. You were emotional with me, you were serious when I needed you to be even though that is one of the hardest things for you to be. You taught me how to be myself and do it for only me. You taught me the importance of hard work and dedication. You taught me so much about what my relationship with Heavenly Father could be. You taught me about patience, repentance, love, and happiness. You held me when I needed it. You were there on the days that all I felt was pain. And instead of making things awkward or getting mad that I was sad you just sat with me and let me cry or made me laugh. When I finally made some life-changing decisions you were the most supportive out of everyone. You were selfless and let me know that you just wanted me to be happy. The day I left Logan was so incredibly sad. Yet, that morning when I drove away from your apartment I knew you would always be someone I could count on. You know so much about me Sammi. You love all of me and it's incredible to me. You know the REAL me and the me I am trying to become. You've never said one unkind word to me. I'll be indebted to you until the end of time. I can't wait for the new memories that are waiting to be made with you as my new roommate!
Sammi has always been someone I can laugh with. I remember the 12 yr old girl that had imaginary friends, short little hair and was a little bit of a freak right along side me. We were great friends that could laugh and play together. Then high school hit. We still did things together but we were very distant. Senior year came with a lot of ups and downs. It started with us super close. We hung out every weekend and did pretty much the same things all the time but I loved it. Cafe rio runs and house hunting always served us well. Toward the last half of my senior year we started drifting for reasons I only blame myself for. The summer before my freshman year we hardly talked at all. However, during all of this I knew she really cared about me and knew I just needed to grow and learn alone for a while.
After a very long year that I had grown more than I ever thought possible we went on a drive over spring break. I asked Sammi how she lived the way she did. I'll never forget what she said. "I live this way because it makes me happy, not because I know it's what I'm supposed to do or because I want to impress the people around me, just because it makes me happy. That's enough for me and it pushes me to strive to be better everyday." I knew then that I needed to stop pushing against her and let her all the way back into my life because she had so much to teach me. That summer was filled with great memories- boyfriends, rodeos, and fabulous group dates.
All of these were nothing compared to the year that was to come. Up to now in our little timeline, Sammi was the friend I wouldn't ever let all the way in. She just seemed too perfect to let her see everything about myself. Like she wouldn't still love me if she knew.
My sophomore year of college was here! I was so excited about my living arrangement and the new friends I would make. I was a little apprehensive about Sammi being in Logan, only because I didn't want to hang out with her so much that I wouldn't make other friends. This was far from what actually happened.
This where the post is going to be directed toward Sammi-
Sammi I don't think you'll ever know what a great blessing it was to have you in Logan this past year. You were always available when I needed you. Even when I wanted to do the lamest things (Girls Just Wanna Have Fun). I opened myself to you completely and you were one of the people I knew would always keep my secrets. You were emotional with me, you were serious when I needed you to be even though that is one of the hardest things for you to be. You taught me how to be myself and do it for only me. You taught me the importance of hard work and dedication. You taught me so much about what my relationship with Heavenly Father could be. You taught me about patience, repentance, love, and happiness. You held me when I needed it. You were there on the days that all I felt was pain. And instead of making things awkward or getting mad that I was sad you just sat with me and let me cry or made me laugh. When I finally made some life-changing decisions you were the most supportive out of everyone. You were selfless and let me know that you just wanted me to be happy. The day I left Logan was so incredibly sad. Yet, that morning when I drove away from your apartment I knew you would always be someone I could count on. You know so much about me Sammi. You love all of me and it's incredible to me. You know the REAL me and the me I am trying to become. You've never said one unkind word to me. I'll be indebted to you until the end of time. I can't wait for the new memories that are waiting to be made with you as my new roommate!
3 comments:
Love the post!! I'm glad you guys are so close :) love you both!
This basically just made my whole life :) Love you so much Shaunzi!
You guys are a winning combo of best friends. I knew it back when we ran through sprinklers and danced to Brittany Spears on our driveways :)
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